Im sick of crying everyday/everynight
i feel so empty
i wish i had never seen his facebook that day
it broke my heart.
we had a perfect day and then i come home and see that .
I've been broken into million pieces and i dnt know how to pick myselfup at the moment.
im so sick of crying but im crying as i type this....
has thought of many things ,bad things... but i love my friends and family too much
funny thing is...i still love him and always will,
he was my first love and i was hoping to be my last..
i kno im naive but i believed in him and i loved him 100%+
despite his imperfections and faults.
to love and not get anything back i the most painful thing..
and then i wasnt good enough and now theres a new girl on the scene who doesnt even care or consider ......idk..
i can't do this...
when something that was once your motivation becomes the reason why your trapped....
i hate pretending like i don't care, i do...
nice girls come last.
i know that for sure.
*cries*
Hey its NinaVivienneLee im not here to take your call right now but leave me your name and number and i'll get back to you <3
mademoiselle
Three things one can't live without;Knowing who you can trust
Knowing the direction you want to go in
Knowing the value of the things you can do for other people less fortunate
and finally,
Narcissistic
Egotistic
Materialistic
empathetic
sympathetic
epicurean
idealist
realist
marxist
capitalist
complex
oh & another thing..
Im not always what i appear to be.
Exits
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3 comments:
:(.....nina!...
love you so much as a friend omgsh :(
you shouldnt have to pretend...you shoudlnt get into the routine of putting a mask on everyday, because one day maybe it wont come off and you'll never know who you really are.
have you been seeing yoru process through the 5 stages of grief
1-Denial-"this can't be happening to me", looking for the former spouse in familia places, or if it is death, setting the table for the person or acting as if they are still in living there. No crying. Not accepting or even acknowledging the loss.
2-Anger-"why me?", feelings of wanting to fight back or get even with spouse of divorce, for death, anger at the deceased, blaming them for leaving.
3-Bargaining-bargaining often takes place before the loss. Attempting to make deals with the spouse who is leaving, or attempting to make deals with God to stop or change the loss. Begging, wishing, praying for them to come back.
4-Depression-overwhelming feelings of hopelessness, frustration, bitterness, self pity, mourning loss of person as well as the hopes, dreams and plans for the future. Feeling lack of control, feeling numb. Perhaps feeling suicidal.
5-Acceptance-there is a difference between resignation and acceptance. You have to accept the loss, not just try to bear it quietly. Realization that it takes two to make or break a marriage. Realization that the person is gone (in death) that it is not their fault, they didn't leave you on purpose. (even in cases of suicide, often the deceased person, was not in their right frame of mind) Finding the good that can come out of the pain of loss, finding comfort and healing. Our goals turn toward personal growth. Stay with fond memories of person.
nina, priests say splitting up or in many cases divorce is like a death, a death of a part of you.
nina its soo bad that he feels nothing.
keep caring, thats how you feel, you shouldnt have to restrain yourself but you should accept and understand that hes going to keep being himself...a naughty kid
get well soon :(
byee
Marc
Thankyou marc *big big big giganticfamily huggg*
love you broo , honest to god
xox
what was i thinking....
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