ohrympic feverrrrrrr.

Good lord!
i think i have actually contracted olympic fever
I sounds so lame!
but yes i think i have
Since 08.08.08 i have found myself glued to the screen , watching anything i can on the olympics.First of all -- the opening ceremony
OMG piss my pants , i thought it was awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
My faves have been the swimming and gymnastics!
;O


tbc.

Fingers tappng on that keyboard again...

to once again produce one of my boring/i think- insightful and sometimes not so insightful blog posts.

I have come to the realisation that lately i ahve become over all happier :)
andf healthier as a person :)
im not living for anyone else, instead i am living for myself.
i love my family i love my friends i love my other half like anything.
Im happy, because im accepting life the way it is ^^.
It feels good :)
i know that often in my posts i am VERY VERY VERY vauge about thinsg that i am talking about /describing but thats just me im just one of those people whose just not prepared to share absolutely EVERYTHING about me in my so called 'personal blog' but if you read long enough you'll eventually decifer what im rambling on about.

okay okay now im starting to sound self obsessed and just a tad okay maybe more that just a tad exaggerative ( if that is a word) over my blog writing.

this post is so boring lol.

This moment.

Ever dreamt of a particular situation.
Either a conversation with someone or just being with someone.
Playing it over in your head.
What you would say.
What you would do.
How you would handle yourself.
And finding that when you got the opportunity to you were too embarassed to say what you planned to.
Your mind is too occupied with a million things you want to explain and nothing is how it appeared in your imagination.
but all thw hile in that web you find yourself
in the end overwhelmingly satisfied and walking away from it feeling okay.

Time

To blog or not to blog?
That is the question.
I have come to the conclusion recently, well not really recently --- i had always known, but didnt really come to admit it till recently.
In a state of denial shall we say or just plain crazy?
Am i happy? or alternatively am i sad?
or am i jus inbetween?
ALready im feeling much better, i should blog more often.
Why not ? i said i would at the beginnning of the year.
Hmmm im appreciating this venting. Although its not very descriptive is it?
lol

Well anyway,
Today was like any other day. Kind of.
I woke up this morning to pouring rain, the weather equiviated (if thats a word)
how i was feeling so i stayed at home instead of travelling to uni for an hour to attend a one hour tut and then another hour travelling back in the miserable pouring rain. I rang bumbum.
Ate breakfast.
Rang bumbum.
Finished off some uni online discussions.
Had some lunch
Huddled infront of the heater while watching Oprah and Dr Oz.
Rang Bumbum.
Poor bugga has chicken pox :(
In fact today was okay.
Rather it was Tonight's events that defined the whole day.



Reading my past blog posts i had written (typed) i found it interesting that however it was at the time, whether it was crappy or just plan boring like all journal entries when re read give me a nostalgic feeling.
The desire to once again be in that situation at that moment in time with such trivial and minimal worries.
Life indeed seems more simplistic 'back then' in comparison to now.
How interesting it is that no matter how much we want to progress and plan for the future we all wish at some point that we could just turn back time and bask in the innocence of just 'being'.Indeed some may disagree and i may only be speaking for a small minority of people.But to me this feels inextricably true. True to fact. True to life.
The power of playback and erase.the power of fastforward and observe.
The oh so common'if i had only known' and the infamous ' if i could go back i would change this'.
Unpredictable and Enduring.
Painstaking and heartbreaking.
Yet incredibly fullfilling.

Randy Pausch

Today i am at home and i was watching oprah and it was about death.
Sacrey/weird i know
but some of the stories were seriously imspirational.
i sound like a freak but search Randy Pausch Inspires Graduates or Randy Pausch Last Lecture: Achieving Your Childhood Dreams in youtube.

i wanted to cry .


it makes me realize how i've been living life.

and makes me want to be a better person.

uni uni

Well hey thurrr Troopers :)
Hows life been?
Me ? I've been good :)
despite the shitload of assessments from uni and the weird confusing so open ended uni essay questions I'm doing fine I'm accepting that is this just all the stuff that comes with being a uni student :)
Work is awesome i love work ^^
I should really be writing another one of my essays right now but hey , i need a break from the brain drain of anthropology ;O
blehhh
anthropology? Nina? you do anthropology ? what the hell is anthropology ?
Google it dudes , i have no idea why I'm doing it.
but that's not to say i don't enjoy it , its just a tad strange , dammit why does my uni have to be so .... humanitarian lol
jks jks
i love the humanities its something i actually get !
LOL
i have no patience , and believe it or not , i know some people would disagree but i find writing and reading books and essays for a whole day more productive than four hours of experimental work only to find that I've produced a blue flame.
yep, you guessed it i am so not the sciencey type, i wish i was though, it would be awesome but i just cant be bothered with all that drawing circles and linking weird acronyms together its not my language, anyone that has a gift for science i commend you for it must take alot to remember all that stuff!
seriously, its impossible for me
LOL
i went into my friend's chem lecture at uni at the beginning of semester and at the beginning found myself intrigued and i myself started actually participating in the lecture, writing down the odd fact here and there but as the hour pasted i was once again thrown into the deep end of science not getting a damn thing , in the end with not battery left in my ipod and nothing else to occupy myself i turned to the giant periodic table in the lecture theatre and attempted to make my name out of the elements.

i am Nitrogen + Sodium = NiNa.
Wooo
an achievement!

Simply to prove my point i think that's probably as far as i will ever get into understanding the finer points of all the sciencey subjects.
For now I'm satisfied with just knowing your household basics such as;
when water freezes it expands so don't fill your water bottled up right to the top and chuck it into the freezer as once did in year 3 , i woke up the next morning anticipating a nice icy cold drink that would slowly melt as the school day progressed but only realised after i opened the freezer that oh shit my F**kin bottle is busted because it expanded as the water (a liquid) became ice (a solid)
ahhh, learn from your mistakes comrades, and share it with the world.
Moral of the story is:
Don't write useless blogs when you have an essays due 2Moro.



Goodnight & Good luck my lovelies,
x. Nina

p.s to all those annoying people who exercise their freedom of expression by aligning themselves all along the walk way and blocking the way so that i cant get to where i want to go without having to 'incidentally' bump into one of you , let me exercise my freedom of expression by letting me have a choice whether i want to talk to you about converting to me to your religion or cult or weird society or make me buy stuff or make me vote for people who i don't know for their place in an organisation that i have never seen the other actual members of.

peace and love.

UNIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

So yea, im sitting here at 10:44 pm
i havwe to be up at 6:00 to catch the bus followed by the train up to central and then my pilates lesson and then to uni for an 11-12 Academic Writing tutorial followed by a political economy tutorial at 12-1 ....
yes those tuts are right after eachother , so you would think that they would be within walking distance right ?
WRONGGGGGGGG
let me put it in perspective for all the smshs people reading this yeah?
my first tut is in ..ooo..lets say smshs and my second tut right after that is at...
hmmm....
UWS PENRITH CAMPUSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
LIKE SERIOUSLY?!?!?
how the heck am i gonna walk that in 5 minutes?

ughh and then i have a 3hr break and then my last lecture at 4-5 lol

;O


nervous much ?

YES!


lol


and i started thinking to myself today ,
welll....
with uni & work...
am i going to be able to even write a blog?
LOLL
i mean , because i hear my friends which have already started uni saying that theres ALWAYS something you need to do and that one lecture is approx totalled to like 7 hrs worth of reading and work ;O
;O
;O
LOLLL
GOOD LORD!



But oh well life is life aye, im actually excited despite the ranting and raving
and panic
lol

2008 will be a great year :)

till next time!
i have to wake up early 2moro ;O
LOLL


x huynhdo.

Tersday.

Okay okay so today was thursday.
Caught the bus at 10:50 and flashed my uni ID card heck yesss.
Student discount.
Got to the shops and met neisy! ;D
She just got back from the phils ahha it was refreshing to talk to her again!
She got me a coin purse, 2 keyrings, a bracelet and a lacoste jumper ^^
Thankyou so much babe!
LOL In the car we were laughing about ASIAN ROADS & drivers ! lawl
The sound of violent honking of the car horn which is mandatory when wanting to overtake another car ahhaha
and finding yourself in a 4WD/car driving along side a motorbike carrying more passengers than you can fit in the vehicle YOUR driving. LAWL
So today we went into the old highschool even though i mentioned in my last post that i wouldnt have a reason to visit anymore ahha
We spoke to nichol and ellie and then drove to blacktown to meet jeromeface
At btown we saw jeanie and ran into kelden lol
The afternoon was no doubt eventful and full of emotion.
After parting with neisy , jom and i walked around and tried to look for something to eat lol.
Caught the train back home with jeanie and we talked about boys and how we havent seen eachother in ages ^^
it was nice to talk to her after so longg!
And i must say GOODLUCK for the modelling!
So proud of that lady , its about time she got into modelling!
Caught the bus home , it was packkkedddd full of school kids ;O
and then i went home and felt artyfarty so i grabbed some canvas and started spray painting and gluing fabric and wool and stuff to it :)
It looks awesome to mee :)
ahaha
its hanging in my room but i still want to add to it , its not quite finished yet
I'll post pictures up when i finish it :)
Oh and btw i went to my cousin;s house yesterday because my gran is back (dad's mum) and we played sing star at my cousin;s house LIKE AWWWMAHHHGOOODNESSS, guess who got ultimate singstar champ broozzz?
ahhaha
HECK YES!
Its a pretty fun game!
& it was nice seeing my cousins again finally!
geez louise!
:)
Anyways,

Till next time,

x.huynhdo.

Super Tuesday - growing pains?

To day i went to my old high school to attend an academic assembly honoring the outstanding achievement of band 6 people :).
I got a band 6 for SAC
And the Zonta International Scholarship :)
HECK YES.
I also saw a lot of old friends and familiar faces.
I did a lot of thinking today.
Ever thought that at one point in your life everything in your life was so right yet so wrong ?
I'm in that position right now.
My situation looks good.
But is it really?
Yet another cruel fact of life that i am being exposed to.
I like to refer to them as "growing pains".
Biggest ADULTguy.

So the prospect of moving out is looming as Uni gets closer, you know somewhere closer to uni and everything else , time for me to go out on my own?
Leave the family nest.
Experience life.
Its really quite bittersweet.

Today was exciting in that we got our awards but made us all think dude , this was the end of the end i don't have an excuse to go back to my old high school anymore.
Well...that is unless they want me to come back and make a speech in ten years time about my time at _ _ _ _ _.

Its at the stage where i thought i had not ALL knowledge of life and the world but at least a considerable amount.
I'm now realizing how wrong i am
I still have so much more to learn.

Currently listening to Ne-Yo - Make it work
hmmmm..

Alot happened today , i just can't find the words.
You know when your feelings are so right and your in the right place ..but what if you do something wrong, like the wrong decision.
It confuses you.
And makes you question whether your risk or choice was the right thing to do or whether it really was just a mistake.
The future becomes harder to see when that happens.
Is that who i wanna be?
I could easily say no.
Thats not me.

i guess if you put it positively, it would be
the right things happening but at the wrong time.
OR is it just wrong wrong wrong on all levels.



till next time.
x. huynhdo.

First the worst , second the best ?

So its Sunday morning , (sings Sunday morning by maroon 5)
Yesterday, being the traditional fun loving Asian family we are, my family and i went to the annual Chinese New Year festival.
It was pretty fun, but nothing we haven't seen before
you know the typical things you see at all festivals;
The stalls, the bbq stick foods, the rides ,the try hard wannabe Asian kids that think their cool with their far out Manga hair traveling around in bunches.
It kinda made me think, im 17 almost 18 and i've never been to one of these things by myself( without my family) and to think that these kids were there just with their friends?
i don't know.weird. ignore me.
lol

So anyway after the festival we got into the car and to our dismay the normal roads that we use to get home were blocked so we had to frickin find our way back in the freaking dark of the night.
DUDE
ALMOST AN HOUR IN THE CAR.
When we finally got home and i rang my misterman.
i love that time in a relationship when you feel completely at home with them and you find that after a fight or something your relationship is stronger than ever.


AHHA he just rang.
"What are you doing now?"
"I'm writing a blog"
"A blog?...why?"
"ahhahahah.. i don't know i feel like it"


Hmmm why am i writing a blog?
Well i guess I'm writing one because Uni is starting soon and i wanted to document my first year at university, i don't know the inner sociologist in me says its a good idea to see how much I've changed overtime or how it impacts upon me, my forever constantly changing state of mind, my status of achievement, my relationships and the impact of my uni life towards the way i will interact and relate to the people i love and loathe.A social study on myself? lol kind of like a John Safran versus god thing but more like Nina Vivienne-lee versus first year uni.
ahha hmmm i seriously want to make a documentary one day.
And one day i will whether it be the changes and difference between experience of immigrants and their children and grandchildren, or even the stories of how different kids from different areas view other cultures, whatever it is, I'm sure it will be something highly drenched in cultural, political and social issues.
Not very exciting to many people hey,
but yea.
haha
the many people that know me are probably reading this thinking
what?!?!?!?
What can i say ?
Blame Society & culture, im a SAC kid forever.
lol


till next time,
x. huynhdo

The first post.

Well hey there,
This i dare say is my first attempt at a "real" blog which i vowel to continue and shall willingly contribute to regularly throughout the coming year.(maybe)

I find myself currently on my living room floor.
My laptop elevated by my the coffee table.
To my right a cushion, to my left my mobile phone.
I now have writer's block ?
;/
until next time?

x. huynhdo.