Time

To blog or not to blog?
That is the question.
I have come to the conclusion recently, well not really recently --- i had always known, but didnt really come to admit it till recently.
In a state of denial shall we say or just plain crazy?
Am i happy? or alternatively am i sad?
or am i jus inbetween?
ALready im feeling much better, i should blog more often.
Why not ? i said i would at the beginnning of the year.
Hmmm im appreciating this venting. Although its not very descriptive is it?
lol

Well anyway,
Today was like any other day. Kind of.
I woke up this morning to pouring rain, the weather equiviated (if thats a word)
how i was feeling so i stayed at home instead of travelling to uni for an hour to attend a one hour tut and then another hour travelling back in the miserable pouring rain. I rang bumbum.
Ate breakfast.
Rang bumbum.
Finished off some uni online discussions.
Had some lunch
Huddled infront of the heater while watching Oprah and Dr Oz.
Rang Bumbum.
Poor bugga has chicken pox :(
In fact today was okay.
Rather it was Tonight's events that defined the whole day.



Reading my past blog posts i had written (typed) i found it interesting that however it was at the time, whether it was crappy or just plan boring like all journal entries when re read give me a nostalgic feeling.
The desire to once again be in that situation at that moment in time with such trivial and minimal worries.
Life indeed seems more simplistic 'back then' in comparison to now.
How interesting it is that no matter how much we want to progress and plan for the future we all wish at some point that we could just turn back time and bask in the innocence of just 'being'.Indeed some may disagree and i may only be speaking for a small minority of people.But to me this feels inextricably true. True to fact. True to life.
The power of playback and erase.the power of fastforward and observe.
The oh so common'if i had only known' and the infamous ' if i could go back i would change this'.
Unpredictable and Enduring.
Painstaking and heartbreaking.
Yet incredibly fullfilling.