And i begin to see the sunlight

And i begin to see the sunlight,
its to bright for my eyes but i see it :)
i will adjust soon :)
like a close friend once said 'ground zero'

clean slate :)
im okay , i promise :)
thankyou i love you all xoxo

October 26th

Im sick of crying everyday/everynight

i feel so empty

i wish i had never seen his facebook that day

it broke my heart.

we had a perfect day and then i come home and see that .

I've been broken into million pieces and i dnt know how to pick myselfup at the moment.

im so sick of crying but im crying as i type this....
has thought of many things ,bad things... but i love my friends and family too much
funny thing is...i still love him and always will,
he was my first love and i was hoping to be my last..
i kno im naive but i believed in him and i loved him 100%+
despite his imperfections and faults.
to love and not get anything back i the most painful thing..

and then i wasnt good enough and now theres a new girl on the scene who doesnt even care or consider ......idk..


i can't do this...

when something that was once your motivation becomes the reason why your trapped....

i hate pretending like i don't care, i do...

nice girls come last.
i know that for sure.
*cries*

Day 5 of 30

WHOOP WHOOP! success in all areas ;)

Day 5 of 30

WHOOP WHOOP! success in all areas ;)

days 3&4 0f 30

success in all areas :)

Day 2of 30 Heathy Eating Challenge, Exercise Plan & Water Challenge

HEC;
Chilli Tuna+ lebanese bread +lettuce +pepper

EP; Costant walking/ movement :)
about to do 45 mins on bike before i sleep + 20 situps + push ups i'v had along day LOL

W; woop woop successs :)

p.s shoulders + abs are axed from pilates LOL yessss! ;)

Day 1 of 30 Heathy Eating Challenge, Exercise Plan & Water Challenge

HEC;

Eating only healthy non processed foods.
Good proportioned meals.
Minus all fatty sauces.
Lower Sugar intake.
More vegies.
Tuna,lean meat etc (Y)
Eating big breakfast, okay lunch n small dinner.
Less bread.


EP;

Pilates. (twice + a week)
45 mins non stop walkin,jogging,running,cyling eitherrrr.
stretches.
50 situps
10 push ups
etccc

W;
Drinking nothing but water.

Wish me luck!!!!!!