November the first

a pinch & a punch , the first day of the month.
<3

And i begin to see the sunlight

And i begin to see the sunlight,
its to bright for my eyes but i see it :)
i will adjust soon :)
like a close friend once said 'ground zero'

clean slate :)
im okay , i promise :)
thankyou i love you all xoxo

October 26th

Im sick of crying everyday/everynight

i feel so empty

i wish i had never seen his facebook that day

it broke my heart.

we had a perfect day and then i come home and see that .

I've been broken into million pieces and i dnt know how to pick myselfup at the moment.

im so sick of crying but im crying as i type this....
has thought of many things ,bad things... but i love my friends and family too much
funny thing is...i still love him and always will,
he was my first love and i was hoping to be my last..
i kno im naive but i believed in him and i loved him 100%+
despite his imperfections and faults.
to love and not get anything back i the most painful thing..

and then i wasnt good enough and now theres a new girl on the scene who doesnt even care or consider ......idk..


i can't do this...

when something that was once your motivation becomes the reason why your trapped....

i hate pretending like i don't care, i do...

nice girls come last.
i know that for sure.
*cries*

Day 5 of 30

WHOOP WHOOP! success in all areas ;)

Day 5 of 30

WHOOP WHOOP! success in all areas ;)

days 3&4 0f 30

success in all areas :)

Day 2of 30 Heathy Eating Challenge, Exercise Plan & Water Challenge

HEC;
Chilli Tuna+ lebanese bread +lettuce +pepper

EP; Costant walking/ movement :)
about to do 45 mins on bike before i sleep + 20 situps + push ups i'v had along day LOL

W; woop woop successs :)

p.s shoulders + abs are axed from pilates LOL yessss! ;)

Day 1 of 30 Heathy Eating Challenge, Exercise Plan & Water Challenge

HEC;

Eating only healthy non processed foods.
Good proportioned meals.
Minus all fatty sauces.
Lower Sugar intake.
More vegies.
Tuna,lean meat etc (Y)
Eating big breakfast, okay lunch n small dinner.
Less bread.


EP;

Pilates. (twice + a week)
45 mins non stop walkin,jogging,running,cyling eitherrrr.
stretches.
50 situps
10 push ups
etccc

W;
Drinking nothing but water.

Wish me luck!!!!!!

Finally<3

So glad you've moved on,
you absolutely have my blessing<3

No grudges :)
Im happy that your happy <3 lol



I've been waiting for this for soooooo long,
lolol




mwah mwah,

NinaVivienneLee.x

year 11-12

Thanx Nic baybee ^^ lolz ehhehe , after i read your comment i thought to myself :

Its been quite a while since i've typed a deep and meaningful blog and actually ..well..not spoke my mind ..but rather flushed all of my thoughts and views about the recent happenings in my life as well as touch on the minor and major things in which i have witnessed and experienced these past couple of weeks, days, hours , minutes....


I'll start with SCABS , for those who dont know what type of people scabs are , let me enlighten you with my knowledge .

SCABS are ...... people who come and say " do you have any money?" with their arm outstretched and their palm facing upwards at you as if it had a sign on it saying " place money here ". But this however doesnt make me crasy with fury.

You know what makes me crasy about these people? wells?.....

okay i'll tell you..

It is a FACT ,that when they say " do you have any money ?" what their really saying is....
" I know YOU have money , and because YOU know that I know that YOU have money, YOU have no choice but to hand it over ".

But thats only the beginning ,

You have your different types of SCABS :

They come in a wide variety of shapes and sizes and with different skills [ Note:BEWARE of these skills i speak of.], for instance some SCABS use their Physical abilities ( sex appeal etc etc. ) inorder to get what they want, some use their Minds/heads to get what they want and others use their pure /sheer evil-ness and lame trickery! gah i hate thsoe the most.


I would tell my story about my 2 experiences with the SAME scab but i shall not , in fear it may become too obvious -_____-;; disapointed i am! but gah!


i will make a code and only those willling to sit there and translate it will understand lolz gah

but i cant be bothered now lolz


maybe one day if we every have a D&M moment , bring up SCABS and trust me these two stories will be the first things you hear from my mouth sigh ****


SCABS steal and dont feel guilty for it gah! but its not just stealing as in snatching a bag or rollin someone for all they've got its actually a much more devious act of stealing because it has to be ..wats the word ??? ummms....... premeditated?? gah! its as bad as lying , infact it involves lying! gah!


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SCABS are even lower than....
EVIL BUSDRIVERS THAT TELL YOU TO PINPOINT EXACTLY WHERE IT IS THAT YOU ARE GOING -___- as soon as they see you have a bus pass allowing FREE TRAVEL i.e what street and which stop on that street ( hey buddy! why dont you just wait till i press the button to find that out you WANG.) as well as ... SNATCHING YOUR BUS PASS OFF YOU AND CLOSELY EXAMINING EVERY DETAIL 0_o ;;???? and then say "OKAY NINA HIYUN take a seat + RUDE ASIAN FOOD SELLING PEOPLE THAT FIND IT IN THEIR NATURE TO RIP PEOPLE OFF.

shove loveeeeeeeee.

I’m just a girl, you’re just a boy
This is my heart, it’s not a toy
So what’s with you playing with my mind
We used to be cool, it’s used to be love
Now it’s become, something like a job
Like it or not, maybe things will change in right before our eyes

I tried to be a picture perfect girl
But you were in your own fantasy world
Try to control me like some kind of barbie
but that just ain’t me

Cause I ain’t a doll, this aint a dollhouse
You’re way too old to be, puttin me down like this
and playing around like this
I ain’t a doll, this ain’t a dollhouse
No, I could never be, stop living life like this
behind these four walls, I ain’t a doll

You call the shots, right down to my shoes
I liked what you liked cause you told me to
An i don’t think that you could even tell
I fell out of love, but it never showed
I gave up on us so long ago
But you’ll never know
baby don’t pretend like you know me so well

I tried to be a picture perfect girl
but you were in your own fantasy world
try to control me like some kind of Barbie
but that just ain’t me

I ain’t a doll, this aint a dollhouse
You’re way too old to be, puttin me down like this
and playing around like this
I ain’t a doll, this ain’t a dollhouse
No, I could never be, stop living life like this
behind these four walls, I ain’t a doll

I’ll never be made of plastic
So glad that my heart’s elastic
No matter what you do
I’ll bounce back offa you
Cut me but I’m not bleeding

I tried to be a picture perfect girl
but you were in your own fantasy world
try to control me like some kind of Barbie
but that just ain’t me
“Dollhouse” lyrics are provided by Geniusbeauty.com

I ain’t a doll, this aint a dollhouse
You’re way too old to be, puttin me down like this
and playing around like this
I ain’t a doll, this ain’t a dollhouse
No I could never be, stop living life like this
Behind these four walls, I ain’t a doll

And I come with imperfections
Epitome of perfection
if you can’t understand, love me the way I am
then you’re no good for me, so glad i kept my receipt

Live Sexy.

Let it go.
Live a little.
Dont hold grudges.
be happy.
live the dream.
live sexy.
<3

how different..

when you realise that you really can't live without that person,
that they are really just a part of you,
when you go to bed at night feeling like your only half of something much bigger than you,
how something can grow from something so simple,
the exchange of glances and the stroke of your fingers on my face,
the way you say my name and the way we fight,
The way we tear into eachother,
The way you know my weaknesses,
the way i know your strengths,
how can i live without you when we've become this?
how ,
when no matter what i do to picture another,
i can't ,
things don't last forever,
good or bad,
but would you mind holding my hand ,
as we discover us again?
hold my hand while i figure out what im doing here again,
and why,
and for who,
me
or you,
i may never find the answer,
but in the end if i look over and my hand is clasped in yours ,
i know i've already found it.

Broken strings - james morrison breaktaking

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me, now I can't feel anything

When I love you and so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking it's the voice of someone else

Oh, it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?

Oh, what are we doing?
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When it's too late, too late

Oh, it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?

But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late, too late

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
So how can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?
Oh, you know that I love you a little less than before

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again

Spring has Sprung my lovelies!

Hey out there bloggers :)
spring has sprung and today seems to be going beautifully , i fed the birds in our backyard today and cleaned up the house true spring cleaning at its best :)
Feeling so fresh!
how have we all been ?
i've learnt that recently that sometimes love does come around and knocks you down just as the song suggests.
a lesson i hate learning but cant help but let myself take the risk, live dangerously i say.
screw predictability.
let your hearts flutter and your imagination run wild.
after all our days are numbered.
its time to have sunshine through the lace curtain mornings,lazy lemonade in hand afternoons and starry summer breeze nights eating popcorn on the roof of the house.

Its time to kiss like you havent seen eachother is years,
brush cheeks like shy teens with their crushes for the first time, time to blush at the sound of his/her voice, time to kiss underwater and roll in the fields.
time to take the risk and trust that hopefully they wont break your heart.
time to be young and foolish.
time to let that special something blossom , after all its about time :)
<3